If I wait for you to call me I’ll never hear from you
But when you’re here you’re too much
And I pray for you to go away
To leave
To not exist
This is hard
Love is hard
It makes you question whether this is even love
Because its painful
And you never get what you want
I am sick
So sick
I am sick I am sick
I want more
But why can I not be happy with what I already have?
Which is myself
This is my leech
I love him and I hate him
He never leaves me
He lives right on my chest, right above my heart
Everyday he gets fatter and fatter
With my blood––
And I get weaker and weaker
I try to pull him off but he says no
Let me stay he begs
His little leech teeth are buried deep in my skin
It made me laugh
And reminded me of you
I wanted to tell you
I wanted to share it with my best friend
But we are not close anymore
We keep our worlds to ourselves
I am not supposed to miss you
I am not supposed to wish
To hear your laugh
To let your voice seduce me
To think about how you smell…
