You’re coming into the shallow end of my heart
The warmth of your body still lingers at the edges
But we are both turning cold
And we know it
You’re coming into the shallow end of my heart
The warmth of your body still lingers at the edges
But we are both turning cold
And we know it
There is something wild in me
Filled with fire
Who is having fun destroying everything
I am creating secrets again
My own life
Unhinging
And scrubbing out the stick
How terrible to be intertwined
Like seaweed tangled in your toes
Swimming across the ocean of pain
I tasted a tear and there wasn’t even salt inside
I’m so tired of crying
Burning and itching
Heart bitten
I argued with myself like a teenager
You are going to regret this
But I have to make sure
I have to check for a pulse one more time
I continue
Come on it’s dead
That false puff of air
I love to love dead things
I’m becoming crazy
Wild and reckless
Like I always do
it doesn’t surprise me anymore
As I watch myself go mad
It’s becoming my ritual
To shiver and bleed
As I slice up the cake
The knife is in my hand
As I press on the frosting
I wish I knew where to collect the strength
To cut all the way through
When we think of meditation, we visualize a monk sitting, legs folded, eyes closed, silent, sitting still. We think that he is in complete peace, his thoughts have ceased, and he’s not bothered by the flies and mosquitoes. His legs aren’t asleep and his back isn’t aching. From the outside, we think meditation is bliss. But when we try meditation on our own, we feel nothing like this.
Meditation is not all peace and enlightenment. It is learning to get comfortable being uncomfortable, being in pain, and training the mind through consciousness. It’s a practice. Some days you will succeed and some days you will have a difficult time. But as long as you are trying, you will receive the benefits.
There are an infinite number of ways to meditate. So, don’t feel discouraged thinking that you are just limited to sitting in silence. You can . . .
If you choose to sit or lay down in silence, feel free to use pillows or sit against a wall to make yourself comfortable. Meditation has no rules and you have to find what works for you. And, when you feel pain or discomfort, be mindful of it and see how long you can last without moving or giving up.
Going to a meditation group can also be helpful because it forces you to stay with the practice. The group energy keeps everyone together and gives you the strength to keep going and maintain. Also, you can make new friends!
The easiest time to meditate is after the body has been moving and exerting itself. This is why we go into Savasana at the end of a yoga class. Working the body allows more space for the mind to calm down. So, no matter your physical practice, try to take 5 minutes to sit still at the end. If you’re having trouble finding stillness, do 20 jumping jacks and try again.
Meditation allows us the space to stop and just exist. To be one with ourselves and the universe. When we give ourselves this time and space, we can remove blockages, we can hear our intuition, we can feel the feelings we were repressing, and we can release tension and de-stress. It is easy for our mind to be a tangled web. Meditation teaches us that things don’t have to be so messy and cloudy. Actually, life is simple. We are blessed to be alive and to experience life. Not all experiences will be pleasurable and meditation can teach us how to accept the unpleasant and even appreciate it.
Nothing can be perfect
Or stay forever lasting
But what about the embers
At the bottom of the fire pit
Or all the sand
That sleeps below the waves
I’ll stay as long as I can
The rain locked us together
As the fog hung around the mountain trees
The sky reflected in your eyes
And I couldn’t believe
How easy it was to be with you
Thank you
You’ve played with my heart
You’ve burned my skin
And suffocated my lungs
With heat
With warmth
The rain started falling
And I couldn’t go anywhere
We can’t speak all the time
But we smile together
You’ve surprised me
After all you’ve taken from me
And pushed me down
Tossed me around
I noticed the flowers that you laid out for me
Go find another heart
To steal
Feed them dragon fruit
And show them the sleepy alleys with graffiti
It’s true
I fall in love with you more everyday
Our bond thickening
With every second
My feet are planted on your floor
But since I have you
I don’t want you
Chiang Mai
I’ve outgrown you
Thank you
Chiang Mai
I’m letting you go
I want something different
Oceans not mountains
Islands not traffic
I am a creature of the night
A slimy alien
Laughing on the moon
I found true love
Only to watch it disappear
Behind a mountain
I can’t see without the light
But my eyes are adjusting
I’m a bat now
Living in a cave of dripping drops
With crystals hidden inside the layers
The moon will roll over the mountains again
The darkness is my home again
There will be good days and bad days
You can calculate them
With a probability formula
A pros and cons list
And decide whether to stay or let go
Or you can turn up the
Frequencies of your soul
Follow the music
And go where it wants you to grow
He’s on my mind again
Like a calm dark ocean
Ice freezing over the roof
He’s on my mind
Like a weight
Because I’m holding my breath
Exhale