T H E S P A R K:
I went on an 8 day trip to Italy when I was 16 years old with my high school Latin class. I discovered magnificent architecture, history, a new language, and a completely new way of living life. It made me realize that there are SO many beautiful things and experiences that I must see for myself, in person. And this sparked something within me – more profound than curiosity. I unearthed a longing and duty to travel.
S I E Z I N G O P P O R T U N I T Y:
After Italy, a girl in one of my college english classes told me about a travel course to Ghana and I immediately went and signed up for the class. I ended up spending a month in rural Ghana teaching maternity yoga and volunteering at a junior high school. This adventure made me realize that I wanted to volunteer in another third world country. 4 years later, I found myself in the Dominican Republic volunteering as a preschool teacher. In between these trips, I backpacked through the USA working on farms because it saved me money and all I desired was to travel. After I returned to school, I made the spontaneous decision to spend my senior year of college in New Zealand studying at the University of Auckland. Now, I am a full-time kindergarten teacher in Chiang Mai, Thailand.
S E L F R E F L E C T I O N:
I have always had an independent, adventurous spirit…but I think that I am looking for something. There is something within me that needs to go somewhere new. Each place enchants and frustrates me. Methods of daily life in each country create a new space in your brain, a new alternative that you never thought of before. You learn about people, how we all want the same things and, also, how we clash.
As I matured, I would ask ‘who am I?’ and ‘what do I want?’ In the beginning, I could not tell what was right or wrong for me. The foundations of my personality and my life’s purpose were unclear. I felt lost and indecisive. I wanted to learn more even if it would be a difficult path. I had to be honest with myself.
In high school, I was in a serious relationship with this guy that I got along with really well. All of a sudden I started feeling suffocated by him. I wanted to be free. I wanted a clean slate so that I could fill it with new people and experiences. When I started having these feelings I understood it as anxiety like being with him made me feel as though we were trapped in a broken elevator. And also heavy guilt because I did not want to hurt him. I absolutely cared for him, but like a switch half of me ran away and the other half wanted to remain close to him. I couldn’t understand the internal battle.
N E W B E G I N N I N G S:
When I finally moved across the country for college, I found an infinite amount of people to be close to. Some bad and some better, but you will never meet the same person twice. People fear that they will not find another best friend or group of friends or community or significant other, but you can always attract the right people. You can attract terrible people as well, but, fortunately, those are the people that teach you the most beautiful life lessons. Everywhere I have lived, I have met special people. Sometime just one person and sometimes a whole group of them. The reward I reap from the risk I take moving to a new place is always the people I get to know. And down the line comes beautiful scenery, food, adventures, and lack of boredom.
M Y P A T H:
I receive fulfillment living life as a nomad than I do staying at home in Connecticut. I want to make the world a better place and right now I am in my research phase. People are cut out into certain shapes based on where they are from and I am just trying to understand how we are similar and how we can help each other.
I still do not know the answers. I am still learning about myself and still very unsure of what I am meant to do. Everything is still very foggy and distant, but I am absolutely sure I am exactly where I am supposed to be. You are as well because only you know what is right for you. I do my best to keep taking steps forward, saying yes to opportunities, reflecting, and working hard to manifest the things that I need and want. Everyday I learn and some things become clear. For now what is best for me is to travel, feel free, write, do yoga, and spend time in nature.
If you are thinking of traveling or moving somewhere new, I hope this inspires you.