Our bodies split
By the vastness of the world
While our souls
Hold hands
Our bodies split
By the vastness of the world
While our souls
Hold hands
She waits for it
Like a child in a deep sleep
Aware that morning will come
Tucked quietly in the darkness
Dreaming
Certain of the sun
As I wrote his name, the pen shook. Like the words knew they weren’t true before they were splotched onto the paper. I was so good at writing how I felt. Writing about pain. But when I tried to write something nice about our future, the pen laughed.
Falling in love again makes me wonder what I even felt before. I know that I was there, but I feel as if my soul had walked off. I look back and it’s just smoke. I lost track of my heart. And just as it found its way back to me, appeared a gift. Arriving much faster than I was ready for. Wide enough to block the road. Unavoidable and sparkling. My chest is overflowing like a pool with the hose running all day. Water-filled spaces that were once empty cracks. My body has been wiped clean. A fresh pulse. A step forward on my path. I’ve been opened up like a book. And not a sentence skipped.
There is something special about cutting open a passion fruit with a sharp knife. A sour and crunchy slurp that nourishes the cells behind my forehead. Sometimes when I’m thirsty I choose fruit instead of water. Maybe I am addicted to the sweetness just as much as the power behind its tart. A small crack on my dry lips lets in a sting. But I allow it because everything heals eventually. And I won’t stop loving these fruits even when I know it comes with a little pain.
Honey got in through the trap door again. It was so sticky this time that nothing could be let in or out. It was either winter or a wild fire. Nothing was breathing. Just ash floating in the sky like snow. Like bits of broken butterfly wings.
So nature made it rain. Cleared the air. Watered the foundations. And surprisingly enough, there were seeds burrowed in the dirt. Forgotten little things waiting to burst through. In no time wild flowers and ferns bubbled up. And the sun and stars breathed out in relief.
I’ve never been so happy
To take me out on a date
People-watch over the balcony
A man in the corner
Plays the saxophone
I’ve fallen in sweetness
With the thought
That I’m all I need
My chest is bursting at the seams and I will not run away. I will not explode. I will sit in the middle of the floor and ride out this fever.
You’re coming into the shallow end of my heart
The warmth of your body still lingers at the edges
But we are both turning cold
And we know it
There is something wild in me
Filled with fire
Who is having fun destroying everything
I am creating secrets again
My own life
Unhinging
And scrubbing out the stick
How terrible to be intertwined
Like seaweed tangled in your toes
Swimming across the ocean of pain